Tuesday, July 21, 2009


Okay okay remember how I said I moved back to blogspot,
well I changed my mind again! But this time, I'll be using on tumblr on the reals.
No more posting on here ;P I find tumblr way more easier to blog & saves time!

& folllllow on twitter!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Feelin' it.

Oh yeah, I'm definitely feelin' it this time. Summer's a breeze
but I need better things to do.

Friday, June 26, 2009


always been my favorite.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009


I finally got my new nikon! Stepdad surprised me with it :DD

Been playing around with it since yesterday. Now I'll have to wait for stepdaddy to buy me new lens. It's great when you're the spoiled daughter of three girls! Lol j/k. Gah, but maybe I'll use my own money this time since all I spend it on is clothes, accesories and what not.

I'm never tilting my head to take a picture again. it makes me cheeks look fat -___-

& here, I look skinny. It's been awhile since I've smiled because my teeth aren't so great. I need my Invisalign! :D But what can I say? Today was a great day <3


Monday, June 15, 2009

The more, the merrier.

The men of Twilight makes it more the merrier to watch ;) aside from the romance of Bella & Edward. At first, I didn't know what to expect of the movie since the book was good. But the cast, especially the guys made it all worth reading the books! Collected the first three books, and Twilight Dvd. Needing Breaking Dawn and hopefully if Midnight Sun comes out, that too. Man. If only, real life romance was like that ;P If only we had cute vampires? Life would be more interesting don't you think?

(*Sigh) New Moon needs to come out already! Nov. 20th is too far away >:P


Love knocks you down.

You keep doing this...but I'm no fool. I've seen this many times before.
You said you ain't cocky, but you admit you've got girls always all over you
and I can't argue with that cause hey, I see it. But you say you're picky, real picky
to be on point. But you want me, you want to get to know ME. Hah, I can't say
I believe you.. but I can say.. I don't want you. I don't want your games, your
sweet talks, bboy walks or your late night calls, texts, none of it! because you're
not good enough. I'm done, over it. Prove you're worth it, worth fighting over.

It's time for me to find myself and what's really worth my time.

Monday, June 1, 2009


to tumblr.com ---> http://mszcestlavie.tumblr.com

Wednesday, May 27, 2009


Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.

Friday, May 22, 2009


Started off great :P Recap on the past week.

Friday May 15:
Last day of school
Brother's (Steven) 6th grade graduation
Brennan's senior graduation
Mom & Stepdad's wedding

This day was the busiest day ever! I didn't have time at all to rest. Didn't head to bed until 3 am which killed me because we had to wake up at 7 to pack for the road trip.

Saturday May 16-18:
Road trip to Anchorage

A celebration/honeymoon thing for the newly weds. I'd say, we saw alot of cool & interesting places and sites. AK is not so bad after all! HAH. But I can't blame Anchorage, it had alot of stores I've never seen before and alot of "funny" places. The open markets reminded me of the swap meet back in Hawaii.

Monday - Thursday
Shopping with sisters & older bro
Park & photography session w/ Brennan
Bike riding w/ brothers
Baking w/ twin

Looking forward to the 3 more months of summer "]

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


The days are counting down & summer is finally here :) The exception that, this is our last week of school is nerve-wrecking (meaning I can't wait 'til it's over!) final exams are driving me insane. Plus, graduation is this friday & I've got to finish banners & leis for Brennan. On the other hand, I've got to finish all my projects for studio art and business. And, I start training @ Top Nails Salon next week! First week of summer? Come on now! Mama really got me going with this school & work stuff. Anyways, I need to pre-arrange my time & that means little time to blog or tweet from now on. & WOO! I can't wait til' I get my new Nikon from stepdad.

Ttfn, muah <3

Monday, May 11, 2009


One of my favorite girlfrens <3 Once in awhile, I think about all the friends I've had and currently have and think to myself that in life, we find friends that we share major interests with and I'd say April Paulino is one of them! Never did we under-estimate each other because we're both cool like that :D We always thought alike and had the same taste in everything! Boys, clothes, things, etc etc etc. She definitely has my trust and loyalty in everything. As time goes on, we lose friends, we gain friends, but I will not see myself losing a friend like her! HAHA. A strong-willed, smart, outgoing and beautiful girl that anyone would love to meet :P And I miss this girl to the maxxxx! Did I mention she has really cute, unique style? Ehe.

Dedicated to appppppe <3

Saturday, May 2, 2009


So I was watching "Even Stevens" last night and I could say that Shia Labeouf looks so young! Since his days in Even Stevens to his movies of Disturbia, Transformers, etc. Shia really matured. He's so...... gorgeous :D Don't you just want a bite of him? Hah.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Every Woman

Needs her man.

Sunday, April 26, 2009


I always loved indie & hiphop together. Especially the style they have. Well last night, Brennan picked me up to head out to a Indie/Hiphop concert. A new band from Oregon called "Portugal The Man". Don't be fooled by their band name, they're actually really good! After 3 long hours of watching the opening gigs from other performers, they finally came out :) They blew my mind away, they're music was really good! I wasn't able to take any photos due to my lack of bringing my camera. But here are some pictures to what they look like.

check out their music @ http://www.myspace.com/portugaltheman

Friday, April 24, 2009

A little about me.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.

1. I was born in Honolulu, Hawaii. Raised by Mom & Stepdad up til' 10 yrs old when they divorced. I've had my shares of dads but I've only came to call one man "dad" & that's the man that raised me. Then Ma' got engaged about a yr ago, and we moved to boring ol' Fairbanks, Alaska 5 months ago.

2. I'm Vietnamese and Chinese. I can understand Viet and speak it fluently. However, I don't understand Chinese nor speak it. But I'm learning! I love both cultures :) I have my mother's last name. Tran, I know it's a common viet last name. So is Nguyen. Haha. I love love viet food, well actually all asian foods :)

3. I have 6 siblings - 4 real brothers, 1 stepsister & Twin. Yes, I do have a twin sister and yes we're born on the same day for you idiots who asks! Her names is Theresa. Mother named us after, "Saint Maria-Theresa" I say having a twin is not so bad but when she always borrow my clothes is when it gets ugly. We get along quite well and no we don't fight, again for those who asks. We may argue sometimes, but we can't stand being mad each other. She's my other half! Together, we're unstoppable.

4. I love clothes. Foreal, you'll probably trip if you actually saw how obsessed I am with clothes. I like anything from vintage to hiphop. What makes my day/week is buying new clothes or accessories. I have the urge to collect accessories, lots of them! I love thrift shopping too! I mean hey, who doesn't love to find something for so cheap? hah! I have my "thrift shopping gals" but sadly, they're not here =P

5. I can be a very girly-girl to a total boy-girl. From boots & sandals to kicks & vans. I like to be a little different and try new things instead of the whole always a girly-girl or tom-boy thing. I like girls who can pull of any outfit they wear and I mean, ANY outfit now.

6. I've been known to be the best advice giver to most people I know. People ask me how do I do it. I guess it just comes natural. I like helping people out even if I hardly know that person. It gives to help someone once in awhile.

7. I have really weird taste buds. Seriously. I'll say that I like waffles with iceceam. I love bananas with my cereal. I have to have my Special K with banana slices every morning or else I'll be cranky :P well atleast every morning, if not, every other morning. But aside those sweets, I really like food that makes you feel good about yourself :) Don't know what I mean? Like salads, yogurts, tuna, celery, etc etc. You get the deal. I try to be a health freak. I hate greasy/fatty foods - fast foods are a no-no! Well let's just say, I'm very picky when it comes to food.

8. I've had 6 ex-boyfriends in the past. And that does not include the pretend boyfriends nor our kindergarten through fifth grade boyfriends. Lol. The funny thing is, as I thought about it, they were all either Chinese or Filipino. Boy oh boy, what a trip! But I stayed faithful to all. The 1st one, Zhi, was basically my soul-mate until family got in the way. 2nd, Kherman, oh my first filipino bf! hah didn't work out because he turned out to be a drugee. 3rd, Tony, didn't work out either because his lack of faithfulness. 4th, Dustin, we were better off as friends. 5th, Kevin or known as "G-No", was too much of a pretty boy/bad boy/and a ladies man. Last, Ryan, we would've made 2 years and 2 months by now. But that all changed 5 months ago. It was more of a friend relationship than a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship.

9. I was never interested in wearing make-up. Back then, I always went the natural way until mid of freshman year when I started using eye-liner (liquid&eye). Then I started using false eyelashes sophmore year because of my very small eyelashes. I know, it's very un-original and "fake" if you prefer but I have a reason to why I wear them unlike other girls who actually have nice long lashes but tries to wear false ones. It just makes them look like a drag queen. (no offense) & yes I still wear them to this day.

10. I'm a very "art-sy" person. I love designs, abstracts, colors, everything you can think of that deals with art. I love doing nails :) I used to be so bad at it. I also love photography. Oh my, my passion! I love beading, sewing, painting, scrapbooking and ya da ya da. I plan to have my own clothing line if it's possible and my own stores. YAYYYY :D I love to paint & design nails, a hobby I picked up when Mama started to work as a nail technician. I do my own every 3 days if I'm not busy. I miss those sessions I've had with the girls :) and doing everyone's nails.

11. I'm a total neat freak! and an organized person. I like things organized and well placed. I like the whole presentable look and feel. I also like everything categorized. For example: my whole closet range from cardigans w/ cardigans, boots w/ boots, tops w/ tops, shoes w/ shoes, jeans w/ jeans, etc etc. You get the whole thing. Sometimes I like to change things up a bit and color coordinate things and vice versa.

12. I'm a really productive person, well that's atleast what everyone says. I can't sit in a chair for a period of time (unless I'm blogging so that's an exception) or else I'll go crazy. I'm always doing something. In school, I'm always in my own little world, working. I've always come to feel selfless when I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. I like that feel of accomplishment :D hah, & plus what I get out of it! WOOOOOOSA.

13. I like talking "properly" for some reason. But you know, I would always throw in the slang and moke action once in awhile. My friends back home said I talk "white" now. What is that supposed to mean? Talking is talking. watevvvvvr. HAH.

14. I've been a straight-A student since I could remember. I came from a very very very strict family that expects so much out of all us. People flip out when they learn that a B to my mom is like an F. So I have to, have to get an A. Erghhh. But hey, beauty & brains? Too badddd most pretty girls aren't like that. I try to be the daughter every parent dreamed of :P

15. I hate sleeping in. I feel as if I'm missing out on the world when I'm sleeping. I get up very early each morning, yes weekends too! It actually feels better because instead of waking up late in the afternoon and wasting your whole day because you woke up so late, I get to do more things. hah :P

16. Every person I have met in my life always always always say, I'm so intimidating! Some people have actually admitted that they thought I'm a mean, stuck-up person. And ergh, they all always say that I'm a very nice person when they actually got to know me. It's so complicated I swear. But I guess, I've always try put on a strong presence and there's a slight chance it's because the way I dress.

17. So I've been told many times that I'm a very loud, impatient obnoxious person. I always scream people's names when I see them. Well the only important people. And I always like everything my way but learned to stop because no one can ever have it their way unless your a total stuckup person. I can never hold my patience. Like I've said before, I want things done in a jiffy. But then again, I'm learning from that too.

18. Okay, now let me emphasis on this. I don't smoke, drink, party, do drugs, or any of those "wasting your life" kind of bullshit. I mean, I do party but not party party where all people do is get drunk, high, or whatever. I think it's absolutely ridiculous. I mean, what are you people trying to prove? That you're allllll that?! Make me yak! I hate how the younger generation is getting influenced by all the teens. "Little girls & boys". Hmmph ;p

19. Every one has said to call me "rich girl" and I feel offended by it. It's not a bad thing, but I'm not rich damn it! I'm a middle-class person but I do love money. Which I need to save up because I'm always spending it on things.

20. I love the warm weather and the feel of the warm breeze from the oceans. It makes me miss Hawaii so much! I morn for those sunny days & raining days where it feels so good to take a nap and hear the rain tapping against your window. Yeah, those days.. But I've learned to like the cold weather, it's not all that bad I guess. Seeing snow for the first time is nice, but no so much having to be in below 0 degrees weather.

21. I like to be sweet to everyone but I can be a total b-i-t-c-h. I swear, people who know me, knows how I am. I can be such a nice person that I get so mad at myself sometimes. But then again, you get the deal when a person can be real nice and sweet then all of a sudden, turn into this evil, mad, "the devil from hell" kind of person! But yes, I try to be nice to everyone. I get along with mostly everyone I know. Maybe that's why I'm the favorite sister :) hah.

22. I love cooking and baking! Well that's because I'm always the one doing all the cooking and what not. Everyone is so lazy nowadays >.< I love love seafood, fish to shrimp to lobster, to oysters and squids! Yummm :D

23. I'm a very unpredictable and an indecisive person. No one can tell what I will do next, that's because I try to keep everything to myself. I hate how people always go telling other people everything what they're gonna do. FYI: No one cares! I'm known as the girl who can't make up her mind. I always want to do this, but will change my mind and do another, and it goes on and on.

24. I'm not going to even type anything about me for #24 fact, but I'll say this will not prove that you know me by just reading this. Ehe. Muah, PL&L!

25. Motha*ckaaaaa, I'm ill.

Thursday, April 23, 2009


So Mom just bought me a new Marc Jacobs perfume :) His new "Daisy" perfume is “happy and youthful”, and “more accessible than the signature range” and “sophisticated but not too serious”. In other words, it's meant to bring younger consumers into the Marc Jacobs fold. It's light & pleasant and all girls should get it! Small are $57 & medium are $72.

& I can't forget, Brennan actually got me the fedora I wanted from the antique shop for my birthday as I mentioned in my previous blog sometime ago. He wanted it so bad for himself but being the "nice" person he is, (well that's what he says, hah!) he bought it :) Thannnks again!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009


One of my favorite bands :) Check out their new album release!

+ Starstrukk & Still Around are the top as of right now.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Knock You Down.

Keri Hilson's debut album just became one of my fav <3
"Knock You Down" ft. Ne-yo & Kanye West is one of the
best jams to jam to in the car! I love her style & she def
rocks the short hair in the vid. Watch out Rihanna!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Time to celebrate.

scuuuured ob dee alien? hah.

I'm excited to say, HAPPPPY BDAY TO TWINNY & I! :D Usually, turning a year older is nothing. But heck, I'm actually excited this year around. Day started off great so far. Relaxing, and no stress >.< Taking millions of pictures in class and getting out @ 12:45. Hurrrrr did! Looking forward to the weekend =) update on it laters.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Out and About.

w/ Brennan alot lately. Went to Town to see what they "got" there. & there was nothing. It's like a ghost town I swear. However, we did discover this antique store, and oh my! It had so many cool things dating back to the 40's-80's. There was this fedora I wanted, but too expensive since it was an "antique". Maybe Brennan will get it for my bday... HAH! Well these days have been alright, cooling off w/ all that's going on and just enjoying the days as it gets warmer.

well here are some pics I took.

I don't enjoy how he edited without my permission!

There's more but somehow he's so lazy to send it all to me.

Monday, April 13, 2009


4 more days til'.......

my day! (:

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Easter Sunday.

I would say what happened detail by detail but I'm a little lazy. The day started at 7 AM when stepsis and I went to hide plastic easter eggs filled with candies & money around the house. There was 124 eggs all together. Then ma' got up, we all cooked, picked up Sung, then we all ate. Waited for everyone to come, while we waited, twinny & I made a vid for april which I so happen don't like, so we're gonna make another one :d. Hunting started around 12 and everyone was going crazy. The teams were so competitive but Team Bunny won the grand prize and it was all over :/ Ate cupcakes and candies ;p 2 oclock and headed outside to play snowball fights. Then inside to warm off, ate cookies&cream icecream - yum :) day went on and we all felt tired.. slept slept and slept til 8 got up, ate pho, homework & back to sleep. Overall, it was a good Sunday<3

The eggs on the cupcakes were actually rings (:

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


So I was bored off my mind and stepdad wanted to re-decorate the "entry" by the front door so we both decided to head to wally-world (that's walmart for you people who don't know what it is). Walked around a bit while he went to get what he needed and I stumbled upon the "spring section" they were putting up. And saw some cute gladiators in all colors. I had to get me some, even though it's from walmart but heck, bargain since I'm on a budget! Hah, and I swear, their new scarf section was decked out :D All pretty spring colors from orange, yellow, aqua, purple, pink and etc. Only bought one since it was 10 bucks and again I'm on a budget! Ergh lame but I'm satisfied for now.

The scarf and gladiators.

& the "re-decorated door entry"

Monday, April 6, 2009


I just love love love colorful laces :D
Once again from Stamp D. I love the different color,
style & funk they put into their clothes!


Now we all know that converses has always been "out" and "in" with style. But Christopher from Stamp D, has been recently working on his new custom converses. Each shoe is guaranteed to be one of a kind and hand painted with the utmost detail and precision. Every pair of Stampd' LA's is an original. These will definitely strike a chord with the right audience!

But what makes it even more the better than any other brand is that not unlike the online tools the big guys boast - through the stampdla.com website customers can design their own shoe allowing them to see their creation before ordering!

Here were some pics that he updated me with.

Check out the website for more!

Sunday, April 5, 2009


on yesterday. So my Saturday started off quite well. Woke up around 10-ish and decided to pamper myself since I haven't done it in so long. Always busy dealing w/ school and the state qualifying exam so it felt good to set time aside yesterday and just relaxed. Got my nails done, and I decided to go with a simple-chic/somewhat vintage style, an all black with polka dots. Turned out pretty cute.

Then, took a long long long bath and listened to my "indie" music while relaxing. The day went on, got an unexpected phone call from my bugs & besssst ryan! It got me thinking about alot of things. Then, just relaxed and relaxed and relaxed. Oh how good it felt to just relax! hah :d Then, around 7-8 ish, Brennan & Max decided they wanted to stop by (because they knew mama was cooking pho). Wooooosa. It's been awhile since she last made it, about 5-6 months ago? But it was yummmmmy :d Since there is no place here where they sell asian ingredients like how HI got chinatown, mama had to place a special order from the main asian downtown in California and had it shipped here. It usually takes about a whole day to make the broth and everything but since ma' is always working, this pho only took about 1 hour :p It turned out pretty good.

Then, around 10 ish (notice how I use "ish" because I never do remember the exact time) Twin, Stepsis, Max, Brennan, & I decided to just talk stories. It went on & on & on to 12 something and they left. Was about to head off to bed, when sissys decided we should eat AGAIN, >> ugh how it made me feel so fat :P w/ older bro since we haven't had a real sit-down meal w/ him in forever. While we were eating, parents came in from the bar and asked twin & I what we wanted for our birthday (since it's in 12 days!) I want a new nikon camera for photography w/ more lens :P it's becoming more and more of my passion. & Twin wanted a new Wii. It's all about the technology nowadays. Hmmph, then I don't know what happened or how the conversation turned into a whole bicker fest with parents arguing back and forth with sisters and brother. Talking about they "never, ever" do anything around the house. This turned into a whole 2 hour convo and didn't hit the sheets til' 3 this morning ;p Didn't even got the chance to call bugs back.. but overall, it was somewhat a good day. Looking forward to this upcoming Saturday. Muah, PL&L!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


Is finalllly here! & you're probably wondering why I'm excited?! well birthday happens to be on the 17th and I'm helllla excited! :D (although I'd rather celebrate it back home w/ my girlfriends&boyfriends) :'{ but I'm looking forward to it! Nothing planned out yet and nothing will be because I love surprises =) shhh. but anyways, April and May will be the busiest months for me >:P The state qualifying exam is already next week & I have to pass it in order to graduate.. LAME! But, just 5 more weeks of school & I'm done w/ the school yr. Phewwww, finally! On the other hand, the word PROM is an issue. Been asked but heck I know I don't want to go. Why?! come on, it's AK. You think prom is gonna be a blast here? uhhhh no! :X There's so much I have to do and so little time. So I've made a promise to myself to set some goals to accomplish some of the things that've been on my mind:

1. Finish the mural/design collab. for LHS
2. Finish the 3 books I've started but haven't bothered to finish
3. Manage time wisely so I'll get the chance to actually call people esp my bugs. I always get exhausted from hmwrk and trying to manage the family. But at the same time I'm still waiting til' I get my phone back.
4. Save $$$ for the road trip we're taking soon. Cuz' I know I'll be spending alot of ma's money & she'll get pisssy.
5. Try to make the best of everything before Brennan leaves :P
6. Cut-dye-&hair extensions makeover ;]
7. Look through colleges cuz' stepdaddy wants us to get a headstart :P
8. Get my Alaska permit & hopefullly liscense
9. Try to lose about 10 pounds in 2 weeks? hah I'll try...

& That's about it for now. Hopefully add some more to this list.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Gaga Look?

So... the new trend is Lady Gaga? Well atleast Nicole Richie tried to pursue it. I certainly think Gaga's style is unique but Richie could lay off that look. She looks way better rocking the bohomian look she always has :D

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Coffee House Thoughts.

I've noticed I've been updating every weekend now? I seriously have to make time for myself & blog more often. Hmmph >:P So, I've caught the flu this week which terribly sucks. But Brennan & Max made my "friday night" when they took me out to look for a show but it turned out there wasn't any so we went to the coffee house Josh works at. Spent hours sitting around, chatting, debating on nonsense topics and begging Brennan to stay here for college for one more yr, that way when I'm done with highschool, we'll be out of here together! But "Mr. Too Cool for Anyone Here" says he has alot to think about ;p Anyways, something hit me while talking to them. Something I'd rather not say. But oh how I can't wait to move to San Fran or San Jose or Seattle, or or or IDK? But I just can't wait :D I'm already working on my "possibly opening a clothing store w/ twinny" THANKS TO MY STEPDADDY! (oh & the accounting class I'm taking since forever!) I can't wait for everything I want to happen, HAPPEN!


Saturday, March 21, 2009

Thrift store.

Now everyone knows that thrifts stores are where "second-hand" clothes OR just clothes that are passed down from companies that never sold them are. Sometimes if you actually "look" around you might find something nice. &&& It's cheap! how coool is that?! hah. I mean, hey, what's the deal w/ it? Ain't nothing wrong about it. But anyways, so today I was stuck at home doing homework since my stupid teachers just piled a bunch of projects for me to finish. Ugh, can you say stressing? But Brennan called and decided to head out for a bit to relieve the damn stress I was having. I swear, Brennan, Joshua, & Max are the only guy friends I have here cos they're only people that have a "sense of style" and Brennan & Joshua actualllllly from HI too! (rich boys cos they're from Moanalua) ergh fuckers >.< How gay now that we live in AK but atleast RESA & I got them ;DDDD

anyways, a clip from today in the thrift store.
Joshua's dancing to the electric piano.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Tick Tock.

is so important to me now ;p
since I've got so much to do.
The whole mural/designing to do & all the homework
from the teachers :X I swear it's like college work or something.
way harder than how it was in HI. But anyways, haven't blogged for a whole week!
Since we got back from spring break. 4th quarter is gonna be the toughest c(:

Man oh man! Haven't even got the chance to keep in touch
w/ my lovers :/ phone's being retarded again too. HMMMPH.
BUT 3 Months have gone by since.....(I rather not tell) nosey people (:
AND TODAY ALSO MARKS THE DAY I'VE MOVED HERE! It's been 4 months now.. & haww
how I miss home :'[
but hey it's the weekend! time to enjoy myself, even though I'll have a bunch of homework.

anyways, tooodles!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Silly girl.

Don't be so humble; you're not that great.

Friday, March 13, 2009

Most likely.

I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman.

Thursday, March 12, 2009


If a girl looks swell when she meets you, who gives a damn if she's late?


Wednesday, March 11, 2009


I like a man who's good, but not too good - for the good die young, and I hate a dead one.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Girls are like pianos. When they're not upright, they're grand.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Tell em'.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Gotta love it.

I really can't deny it, I am who I am. I'm pretty normal. I'm not that smooth type of girl. I run into things, I trip, I spill food. I say stupid things... I really don't have it all together.

But yet, you've learned to love me ;]


The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you...

Saturday, March 7, 2009


I'm the best you'll ever have ;]

Friday, March 6, 2009

Sisterly Love <3

Sisters annoy, interfere, criticize but they don't need words. They have indulge in monumental sulks, in huffs, in snide remarks. They have perfected a language of snarls and smiles and frowns and winks - expressions of shocked surprise and incredulity and disbelief. Sniffs and snorts and gasps and sighs - that can undermine any tale you're telling. They know you inside-out. Sisters borrow, share, break and even monopolize the bathroom. They're always underfoot but if catastrophe should stike, they'll be there. Defending you against all, which should be said that sisterhood is the most powerful-est bond.

-- Wouldn't made it this far with these two diva's ;P
hah, chubbbbbby cheeks ;D but i'm still cute ^___^

Thursday, March 5, 2009


I'm tough, I'm ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, the hell with it.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.

Monday, March 2, 2009


It's that wonderful old-fashioned idea that others come first and you come second. This was the whole ethic by which I was brought up. Others matter more than you do, so don't fuss dear; get on with it!

Sunday, March 1, 2009


As the first sign of the Zodiac, Aries represents beginnings of all kinds. Aries people like to be first, and are often in a hurry. They have a natural tendency to be assertive and single-minded. In a negative situation, this can lead to stubborn aggression, but when channelled positively, the Aries personality exhibits leadership and creative accomplishments. Endurance and confidence make it possible for Aries to achieve things that might seem impossible to other people.

Aries people usually know what they want, and are rarely shy about making their needs known. They do not like to lose an argument, and may have to practice very hard to learn the art of compromise. Fair in their opinions, they make good friends because of their honesty and reliability. Aries will never desert a friend in need.

"Pioneer" is a key word often used for Aries. This inventive soul has the courage to try new things, and the optimism to believe in ultimate success.

Saturday, February 28, 2009


It is harder to be poor without complaining than to be rich without boasting.

Friday, February 27, 2009


Hahahahahahahahahaha... OOPS MY BAD!

I can't help but laugh ;]

- People always say they've got haters and OKAY?!
what are you trying to prove?
that you're "ALLLL THAT?!"
HAH! funnnny ;] but hey it's okay
but you don't need to tell the whole fucken world!

Just take the advice & love your enemies cuz' it just makes them so damned mad!


Thursday, February 26, 2009

What's the deal?

A celebrity is a person who works hard all his/her life to become well known, then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Ooooo la la.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009


So the skies here in Alaska are so jaw-dropping.
the only thing that's nice here, hah xD
I'd say you have to see for yourself.

Orange, purple, pink, & yellow skies ;]
Ooooo pretty pretty.

Monday, February 23, 2009


People are so eager to blame one cause, so the situation can be fixed. Jumping to conclusions when there should be an explanation. Giving up when you almost got it. Not even trying when opportunities are open or just maybe throwing it all away for something that's not even worth it. BOOOOO! it's such a shame.

well weekend was relaxin' :D
my bugs sang to me sleeeep for the past few days <3
but another hectic week w/ school AGAIN.
hmmmmmph. but got a new fav song by T.I. ft JT
lyrics are killllllllin' me, hah xD
my poor husband TI is going to jail ;'( hawwwww. lol :D
anyways enjoy, muah <3

Sunday, February 22, 2009


The most courageous act is to think for yourself - Aloud ;]

Saturday, February 21, 2009


It's all about perception nowadays. Dress and act like a slut, be treated as a slut. Dress and act as a classy lady, be treated as a classy lady. The word wanders through your mind as you find its meaning. It's a shame when women only try to "dress to impress" when they are at their most fertile. I don't understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little - if only out of politeness. And then, you never know, maybe that's the day she has a date with destiny. And it's best to be as pretty as possible for destiny. We have seen some evidence that men may at some level 'know' too - although with less certainty. A style does not go out of style as long as it adapts itself to its period. When there is an incompatibility between the style and a certain state of mind, it is never the style that triumphs. So ladies & men (if you may) dress to impress.

People everywhere are judging you.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009


Real eyes, Real lies, Realize ;]

done deal.

Monday, February 16, 2009



Friday: kicked off the day w/ the family. catched a film, mcds, & something special.
Saturday: was VDAY! & mhmm a cute gift from my bugs (btw, thanks love :D ) & night out w/ the girls. Catched the must see chick flick of all times, "He's not that into you" Recommend it for all the ladies.
Sunday: a lot happened & I don't want to mention what ;P things are getting to me again, confused to what I want >:P
Monday: hmmm mall & day with the girls again & finally got the time to update my blogs.

Blogging on my ideals will be up soon, so for all you that have been asking.
I'll post it up soon ^^ muah <3

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Stupid girls.

Here I am, sittin' in english, bored out of my mind & this girl sittin' across the room is buggin' me.
Now, it takes alot for someone to bug me, but just looking @ this girl
is already annoying ;P She always have something stupid to say.

You know...

Humans only use about 1/10 of their brain power. With some girls, it could be less.

Anyways, bell's about to ring then I'm outta school!
4 day weekend ;D ^__^
be back w/ this ;]

P, L, & L!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009


Life is not the amounts of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away. One moment, you're enjoying your life. Then the next, you're wondering how you ever lived without them. Never lie, steal, cheat or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you dislike. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away.

Because that’s what people do. They leap and then hope that they can fly because otherwise, we just drop like a rock! Wondering the whole way down, "Why in the hell did I jump?!"

But here I am, falling. And there’s only one person that makes feel that I can fly. & that's myself (:

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

It kills.

Sittin' in english class. Thinkin', wonderin', imaginin', daydreamin' ;P

Ahhh the day goes by slowly...
One more period & I'm out!
chee hee :DD

Alright, laters ^__^

Monday, February 9, 2009

Ladies should know this by now.

Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months. Don't you agree? Only men who are not interested in women, are interested in women's clothes. Men who like women never notice what they wear. Above all ladies, remember that the most important thing you can take anywhere is not a Gucci bag or fresh cut jeans, it's an open mind.

Sunday, February 8, 2009


I'm a first believer in the power of change. But there is one thing I've learned, and that's the hardest part of moving forward is, not looking back. Now here I sit so far away, remembering all our memories, and it's times like these that I miss you all the most, remembering when we were so close. I thought we'd be friends for many more years, but as time goes on, our pictures fade and all of our good times seem to drift away. We have all grown up, and there's no denying that. But it's tough to tell, if in that growing up, we've simply grown apart.

Silence has become normal between us. Not the nice kind of silence, or the comfortable kind of silence. But the awkward kind of silence, like between strangers. Our silence is an avoidance of the truth. I've learned that every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you. And sometimes they fall short and friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting.

It means the memories last, even if contact is lost. What is too painful to remember, we simply choose to forget. So it's the laughter we'll remember, whenever we remember the way we were. I feel all is lost, no one remembers. Years from now, as we meet again. It'll be awkward and they've forgotten.

Sometimes I wish I could just fast-forward through time, just to see if it's worth it all in the end.

Slowly, day by day, losing...

Best, bessys, OT forever? maybe... maybe not..

Saturday, February 7, 2009


So today's bro's bday ;DDD

&&&&&&& I should be gettin' ready!
hah, alright later toots ;]

be back w/ this <3

Thursday, February 5, 2009


I miss my OT girls
I miss my Bessst!
I miss my bessys
I miss my gilfren
I miss my wifey
I miss my gay bfs
I miss my nigguhs
I miss my ladies

I just miss home :'[

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


The countdown is down. 3 more days til' bro's bday party!
Gonna' be crazy ^__^ & Today's cupcakke's pop's bday.

So a lil tribute to Mr. Leano <3

Valentine's is almost here too! OUUU
excited but don't know what I'm gonna do >:P
hmph, no "blogging my thoughts" tonight.

hella wiped out & exhausted. yuck, anyways g'night!

P,L, & L! <3

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A million smiles.

I have found that among its other benefits, giving liberates the soul of the giver.
There is a wonderful yet mythical law of nature that the three things we crave most in life and I say that is happiness, freedom, and peace of mind. These are always attained by giving them to someone else. We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give. Seeing a million smiles, cries of happiness, and the most powerful word known to man kind, "thank you" really essentiate a person's soul. It gives a positive outlook to what we're doing. Knowing we're changing a person's life. Giving all you have, or maybe just a little means something. Giving back is an area too many of us do not excel in. It is the understanding that experience teaches us to pay life back along the way with small acts of kindness. It is a reciprocal arrangement with the world, give a little and get a little. It keeps the blur of the world in focus. Giving back keeps your mind in tune with others, our perception of ourselves and how others view us. A smile is worth a million, but a million smiles? Expands beyond what we imagine.

Seeing those smiles on those children's faces twisted me from inside out.
I can't even explain, a pleasure to have and yet grieve. I'd say that this is the next chapter.

For we all have yet to accomplish.
Muah <3

Monday, February 2, 2009

Time on my hands.

--> Sucessful people are the ones who think up things for the rest of the world to keep busy at.

The key word, busy.

These months are gonna' be busy for me I tell ya'! ;P
applying for an intern, finally pursuing my fav hobby <3
which ya'll already know ^___^

& Valentine's Day is coming up!
alot of birthdays, parties are coming up also ;D

& school is dragging me down =P but I got it together. You already know.
Won't be on myspace as much anymore but always updating blogs :D

So sorry for the late replies, you know I got mad love for ya'll.
Peace, Love, & Lipstick! muah suckaz c(:

Sunday, February 1, 2009

February 1st

Today's my mamasan's bday!


I feel rather sad to not be there for her celebration
but I got mad love for this girl <3 Been through thick&thin
since the 6th grade! & We were the three white/asian amigas! WOO-HOO!

One of the last pictures we took before we left & I was cut off but

I still Love you forever Daedae! <3


Right view
Right intention
Right speech
Right action
Right livelihood
Right effort
Right mindfulness
Right concentration

The great emphasis is put on the practical aspect


girls that acknowledge it,
polish it,

after that, swallow it.

Back to back.

Decided to not blog about my thoughts today but rather quote one of my fav quotes from Dianalyn! YAYYYY ;D haha anyways here it is.

"ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS!! Emphasize on ALWAYS, know what you deserve and never settle for anything less. No matter how much you want it, you have to learn that it's not all about what you want, rather about what you deserve."

Hands down, so true ;]

& a video that I like for some odd reason too <3

Man, if a guy sing like that to me, I'd faint in his arms ;]
hahahahaahhahahahah! pish posh.

Friday, January 30, 2009


If you are a man, guy, boy, etc. OR is just confused to what the hell you are. Enjoy reading this, & to all the ladies, this is for you ;]

Men men men, constant battles with men. How can we endure them? Yesterday & the day before, I've witnessed the heartbreaks of my two most beloved sisters as their boyfriends tore their hearts apart. Struggles, cries, frustration, anger, lost of respect, and just those itty bitty lil' irritating phrases. I surely know how they feel as to how hard I try to comfort them because I'VE been through that struggle. I'VE been through that! & we all have right ladies? Surely, as you all know the famous quote, "Behind every beautiful girl, there's a screwed up guy who did her wrong, but made her strong." I simply didn't believe this until now. Guys are so selfish, but I didn't say girls aren't. All I'm saying is, part of the reason that men seem so much less loving than women is that men's behavior is measured with a feminine ruler. I mean, men lose more conquests by their own awkwardness than by any virtue in the woman. Hook-ups to break-ups to make-ups. It's a continous cycle that we all witness in our lifetime. Then, without realizing it, you try to improve yourself at the start of each new day; of course, you achieve quite a lot in the course of time. Anyone can do this, it costs nothing and is certainly very helpful. Whoever doesn't know it must learn and find by experience that a quiet conscience makes one strong. You build up this armor to protect yourself, but then as you're right on track, all of a sudden, one guy from all the stupid guys wanders into your life. He makes you so vulnerable as he opens you up and it means he can mess you up. & you give him a piece of you. He gets inside you. As he does, it eats you up and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like maybe "we should just be friends" or how every perceptive turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart! It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart hurt. We as woman grieve for things, but we do rejoice them as well. Of course, men aren't all the same. Neither are women.

But we all know, before success comes in any man’s life, he’s sure to meet with much temporary defeat and, perhaps some failures. When defeat overtakes a man, the easiest and the most logical thing to do is to quit. That’s exactly what the majority of men do and that's exactly what shows how men are weak. I'd say God gave men both a penis and a brain, but unfortunately not enough blood supply to run both at the same time! Hah. Men, Men, Men, they easily come, but yet they easily go, what's hard is finding someone worth keeping. We're lucky enough to have such a man.

In all, to all you so called "men", You can only push a girl away for so long until she walks out of your life on her own. So be careful and make sure this is what you want. Because once she turns around, she isn't coming back.

& to all my ladies, this is not the end. we have more to accomplish for sucess is not final, failure is not fatal, it is courage to continue that counts. Women will always be dominant. Duh ;]



Thursday, January 29, 2009

Self Explanatory.

All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I've turned, someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.

Ain't no one can phase me ;]

Wednesday, January 28, 2009


We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that we become disguised to ourselves. While most guys act like dogs, girls love to act like one another. The next chapter in life is to be independent, follow your own instincts, taste, style, etc etc. Being said, the most important thing for 3 out of 7 people is to please others. By all means, it means trying to be like the one person they think is so "known". It's alright to be known, but what exactly would you be known for?

It has said to be that many of you are known for nothing. Being talked about, having your name said by people who don't even know you, having the best style, or even being the diva or hustla' doesn't necessarily mean you're poplular & that everyone admires you. Sure, they think you're cool but you can never make a huge impact on their lives or maybe even your own. Having this said, no one appreciates the hard-working individuals who bust their asses everyday. Who pushes themselves to the limit, and you pathetic bitches get all the attention. We've got a reason to go to school or work everyday, & that doesn't mean come & sit your ass in a chair just tryna look good for everyone else. Tryna' act. What a waste of breath, time, and respect.

This being said, always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.

Please, we don't have enough space to accompany your bullshit!
Get it? Got it? GOOOOOOD.


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Imitation is a state of mind.

Everyone seems to thrive on looking like her, him, or the skinny model from vogue magazine. To dress, speak, walk, and possibly, look like that person! We all are created equal, but that doesn't mean we all have to copy each other. Girls and even guys don't see this because they're too focused on what's in front of them. Too focused that they have to be something or someone else just to recieve people's attention and affection.

Nothing is original. We steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels our imagination. Don't you think? We devour old films, new films, books, music, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, nature, light, and even shadows. Everyone thinks they're better than everyone else at one point but we all know we ain't. Select only things to take from, that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, then your work is authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don't bother concealing it, celebrate it if you have to. You can't hide it. BUT in any case, remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: "It's not where you take things from- it's where you take them to."

After you've done this, then you're truly what you say, one of a kind.

Monday, January 26, 2009

La Isla Bonita.

A term used for beautiful island and you've guessed it, my mind wanders off to Hawaii. Funny thing is, every so often we'd wish we were off that rock and seeing some new places for once but since my move up here, I've realized how much I miss HI! It's only been about 2 months, and already I'm going crazy. Living in Fairbanks, Alaska is 'aight but heck, I wonder what the hell do people do up here?! Of course, there's the occasional shopping malls, movies theaters, hangouts, & whatever but it's nothing like Hawaii I tell ya' This place is whack if ya' ask me. Hawaii is the place to be. It's home, home to where my heart lies, home to where the sun shines bright & the weather is nice & warm, home to where there's long beautiful stretches of beaches, home to where the waves crashes against the rocks, home to where there's a variety of rich cultural heritages, home to where asians get along with ploynesians, <-- haha yeah even that. Just home, to where I belong. I know, that it'll probably be a long time 'til I'm back home again but note this, I'll be back, I'll be back someday, you'll see ;]

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Silly goose.

Just started blogging, & ain't got time. So I'll be back with this.